Monday, August 1, 2011
Waste Of A Precious Gift
Something has been bothering me since my biopsy last Wednesday. I went for a Biopsy to check to see if I was still in rejection and I got a ZERO! After my biopsy I had a appointment with my Transplant Doctor and I met a woman in the waiting room. She asked me how far out I was and I told her 10 months. She had a Kidney and Heart transplant 18 years ago. I was thrilled to hear she had gone that long with her organs. She told us she now needs a new Kidney and a new Heart. She explained that she had become very depressed and due to medicine she has gone into rejection. I said oh wow your anti rejection meds made you reject? No, she said… I got so depressed I STOPPED taking my anti-rejection medications for a year. WHAT???????? I was glad my mask was on because my mouth dropped open. I wished her good luck but I was upset and mad all at the same time. I don’t understand how someone can waste this 2nd chance at life like that. This transplant journey is not a easy one. It comes with a lot of pain, sorrow, trials and struggles. I understand that, I know how hard it is. I also get very sad at times, all transplant patients do. You have to push through that and see the silver lining.. YOU ARE ALIVE!!!! Some stranger that never knew me registered as a organ donor, she then passed away and due to her selfless gift I received her heart and a 2nd chance at life. I look in the mirror every day and thank my donor and I live to honor her. I don’t understand how someone could not take their medicines for a year and not feel guilty. How could you not think of your donor? How could you not think of the pain their family went through loosing a loved one? How could you not think of the pain you were in before transplant? How could you not think of your family and friends and all they have gone through with you along this journey? It take a selfish person to waste a gift like this. I also don’t understand after she is the reason she went into rejection and now needs new organs WHY they would give them to her. I had to go through a lot of tests and I had to have a psych evaluation. They want to make sure you aren’t going to be risky or essentially WASTE the organ. Well she did and now she is going to get 2 more? Today, more than 3,700 patients listed at Florida transplant centers await life-saving organ transplants. What if 1 of those 3,700 don’t get their organ due to someone being so dangerous with their life. My heart is heavy with this. I don’t take my transplant, my donor or this new life for granted! I pray that if it is God’s will for this woman to receive a 3rd chance at life she takes it and doesn’t just throw it away!!!!
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WONDERFUL WRITE UP RAMSEY! I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU! THAT WAS THE FIRST THING THAT CAME INTO MY MIND, WAS SOME ONE THAT IS IN LINE BEHIND HER THAT HAS NEVER HAD A TRANSPLANT GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT LONGER AND SUFFER LONGER TO GET THEIRS!!SO SAD! (BOTH SITUATIONS)
ReplyDeleteRamsey I started to tear when I read this. First I am just as mad as you and and kind of hurt. Me and thousands of others sit here waiting and she had her chance at a new life. I am not sure if I would give her another one when so many wait and are getting sicker. I look at you in a new light now because I probably would have yelled at her in the middle of the doctors office. I myself and like you and will treat my new heart as an amazing gift and follow the doctors orders and TAKE MY MEDICATION. I know how hard it is before the transplant and how much it sucks just for me to fly to Cleveland get poked and tested on all day and go through psych evals and to think why would she want to experience all that again?? Why waste an organ that someone else gave to you and to know their family is still hurting from their loss...GIRL I AM FUMING. I love you and you keep me going and optimistic about my transplant. I will pray on this one.
ReplyDeleteSorry to blow up your page but that got me....
I have prayed and prayed about this and I have come to believe that everyone has sins and if we ask God to forgive those sins and ask forgiveness that he wipes the slate clean. If this is the case with this woman...then who am I to judge that she not get a heart. It's between her and God and if not she will deal with that latter on. All I can do is pray for her and ask God to give her the comfort and strength she needs to cherish this amazing gift! Carmen- love ya girl and when its time you are going to receive the PERFECT match for you and you are going to do GREAT and feel AMAZING!!! Luv ya!
ReplyDelete~Ramsey